I was once asked, why I sleep so late.
My response was, because in my dreams, is where I'm happy.

Nothing has really been up lately, but I feel I owe all of you who haven't removed me from your friend page yet a little update on what's been going on.

I've been working alot it seems. At the deli 6 days a week and starting next weekend the scream park as many days as Joe can I guess. Even today I had a 12pm-12am shift pretty much...
the scream park money does help though, because of it I haven't really had to use any from King Kullen..and it's been able to sit comfortably in my bank account.

My phone screen broke AGAIN, I swear I have trouble keeping a phone not broken. So I can't text message...I can still call and make calls though because a little part of the screen is still working so I know who I'm calling..and most of my friends who call often have their own ringtones.

Other than that not much else is new...still feeling kinda alone, because EVERYONE around me has their significant other even if they aren't going out..I don't know it hasn't been bothering me too much lately...it's all getting kinda old I guess, and no one has bought that wow factor to me in awhile (i guess cuz i'm surrounded by idiots) I don't know...this girl at my job has kinda been filling in that gap, even if she is engaged. Just having someone like her I can joke and pal around with and make laugh has been enough.

NYAF was great! There was sooo many great stories about that day...

I feel like I've been away for awhile..even though my last update was 4 days ago
Life I've gotta say hasn't been pretty boring...
but still..nothing is really going on either. Maybe I've come to accept this? I doubt it.
I'm extremely worn out right now, I don't really no why, I didn't have work at the deli today, but I did go to the scream park and stand around for a bit. It's still learning to crawl before it springs up and becomes crazy.
Tomorrow I have work at 8..which is pretty early for me...and unfortunately I won't get to work with neither Brendan or the cool new chick. Well I get to work with her for an hour. She is one of those people who can sort of fake being nice to someone even if she hates them (like she does to one of the new guys there) but I think me and her are getting along fine. We've been talking like we've known each other for years...which is not normal for me and anyone, I just met.

I reserved the game Wet and I played the demo (not all the way through) this seems like it's going to be a good use of $50, can't wait! Comes out Tuesday! =) also I think I'ma get a new psp next thursday, so Dissidia battles shall ensue!

While I was at the mall today, I noticed that Hot Topic has Heartless (you know from Kingdom Hearts) t-shirts, and at such a convenient time. The neo-heartless (as well as the regular baby heartless) like I'm being down bare the heartless symbol like the others do, however I feel like my idea will get across better if I do wear it. So I think I'ma buy that too! Yeah..good bye saving money lol.

Tomorrow will be my 1 year at King Kullen, lol. I can't believe it...I guess secretly that was another resolution I had held, and trust me at times I wanted to quit...but now that John has gotten himself fired, I have nothing to worry about. Working days and no john makes this kid happy. Still I can't believe it..other than having a job for consecutive summers...the longest job I've held was about 6 months..and I just doubled it.

I'm tired..I'm going to bed early tonight. Oh! an I want to apologize for not commenting that often lately. I usually read what you guys write, but don't really know what you're talking about..or what to say in my comment.

An old lady called me a "Young Superhero"...and all i was doing was cutting her deli meat.

The other day someone drove into the store....apparently it was a drunk Nun.

The kid I hate at work, is probably getting fired because he decided to write a note to our manager and stab it with a knife.....They took it as a threat.

There is two new girls being hired to the deli, everyone is excited..and asking me if i'm excited, I told them I don't care....they're probably not my type anyway. Them being female makes no difference in whether they're nice people or not.

I don't get people.


I've been drawing a lot lately...I can practically draw Vincent and Yuffie without looking at them. I usually draw FF7 yuffie, her costume is alot more fun to draw then her others...though i DO really like her Dirge of Cerberus costume...I draw Vincent's AC/DoC costume it's..different...subtle there.

The scream park starts next week....can't wait. I hope I make at least one more friend. lol

those are just a few things I wanted to let you guys in on...

"What do I do now that the smile is gone..."

There's a 7am?

( Waking up thoughts )

Soooo.. I've been updating alot. Most of it meaning nothing because nothing really has been going on. Still. I have the urge to write.

Today I got my digi camera. When I got to Best Buy I decided not to go with the camera i looked up online because it didn't take up-close pictures very well..and it was more expensive because it had small minor features that I would barely use..or wasn't dying to have...like a .3 bigger screen. Most pictures I take, that aren't of people are really upclose pictures of figures I have, that I then later add to my Deviant Art page

http://jadekatana.deviantart.com/

I've been dying to do some better work but with the lack of changing environment, limits me some. I have some really interesting ones on there (most involving Yuffie, cuz she's my favorite and oh too willing to pose for the camera), I'll post a few here.

School's right around the corner..idk how to take that. It's going to start being busier on certain days of the week again at work (as it always is), but i'll also be able to go up to the school and finally see if i'm going to school in the winter and spring semester. I SUPPOSE i could have went before..but..it's not urgent. Can't wait to take creative writing..then hopefully i can blow through this major and actually get moving to a real college...I wanna get into New Paltz, I heard it's really good, however with the skills I have and the art i have that's actually presentable..I'll have kinda hard time getting in. I can draw..I can draw pretty well...but it's like an unpredictable time, I'm also very judgmental of my works,and I'll get halfway through and stop, because i hate it.

I think I had more to write, but i got sidetracked like I always do..so I'm going to end it with the pictures and this music thing a few of my friends on Facebook had done.

( Pictures and My life according to Nightwish )

Hm...so I finally got Sandralinda (my wow character) a wolf mount. I've wanted one for awhile now =), now all that's left is to get Misachan her bow, and tame King Bangladesh and call it Rem =P..idk if i want two cats though...

IRL:

It's sooooo damn hot!!

I'm going to see if I can get my camera from bestbuy tomorrow if they don't have it..then I guess I'll just order it online and wait for them to send it to me.

My Doronjo figure should be coming in tomorrow!! Can't wait, another figure for my collection lol.

So I figured I'd go as a heartless to the con =)...so i gotta work on that, it won't be the traditional type of a but it'd be somewhat similar lol

Lately my thoughts have been everywhere. So I haven't been able to update normally like I usually do. Today this kid at my job who I dislike...apologized for being a douche to me at school, he said he associated me with my friends who he does not like. I didn't respond really. I gave a "oh" as a response, then he goes on to say...that "You're an okay guy" I give a half hearted thanks, I REALLY don't trust this kid...and on top of that, he wasn't a douche to me at school..infact we didn't really talk...he and his friend picked fights with my friends before they ever even spoke a word to him, so it's his fault they didn't get along. ALSO i didn't dislike him (other than the fact he annoyed my friends) until we started working together....he talked about being on anger management meds or something..which I guess should receive some sympathy, but he goes on to say he's just not a nice person. Idk I really couldn't give a crap..the kid isn't stupid.
( Pictures of Sandralinda )

( Pictures of Misachan!! )

It's really hot..
I was bored so i did this meme

I really want to write something, but I don't know about what...

( A few things about me )

Random thoughts before work:

Feeling better than I was the day before
I really wanna see YattaMan (Yatterman) it seems interesting, alas I do not know Japanese
Anime New York is coming up...wanna help me choose what to be?
1. A team Rocket memeber (the black and red costumes and may do some creative changes)
2. A "Tripped out Heartless" like I saw on Deviant Art (you can most likely find it under that name)
(open to other suggestions too..though i guess i'd have to list animes I watch....)

it's Sept 25..so i have a little time, but not much...soooooo i dunno. I wanted to do Demon Kimimaro but I don't know how to make the bones for his back, but that would work so well =)

Apparently I got written up (or am going to be) for standing around doing nothing last night during closing...I'm going to shut them up. I really hate their bullshit...they want us open to 10...so i figured we would do everything around 10..since it's just going to continue to get messy. I need a new job...I thought of trying the post office or train stewart...riding on a train as a job seems like it'd be fun

"Train Train Take us away
Take us away Far away
Into the future We will go
Where it leads
No one knows"

No camera yet...kinda made peace with that fact.

I bought a : Miss Doronjo (from Yattaman) figure, from the life action Yattaman movie (now that other note seems pointless)

and I'm currently bidding on 30 "Runaways" comics on ebay..for $30...plus like $4 shipping...comics are usually $3 so that's easily...$90...good deal. The "Runaways" is an AWESOME series..and I can't wait til the movie comes out, whenever that'll be. They better cast a pretty decent looking Asian chick to play Nico Minoru (aka Sister Grimm, which fans seem to like more)..to be honest..i don't even know if she IS Asian..the art style kinda dictates that though.

hooray for impulse buying...now off to work

p.s. I <3 my Yuffie i-con...i use it often if you haven't noticed.

....my heart has no place......no where to call a home..


The entry below for some reason made me feel better...let me tell you about my day thus far.
I went to work...I had to work with this kid..I hate him. Hate isn't even a strong enough word for what I feel for this kid. My manager knows I hate him, and that we don't get along..he knows this..and yet the fat fuck schedules us both til closing. At least when he's there til 8, I have someone else with me. So that puts me in a bad mood...then my friend cancels on me with plans...so I call up my friend Joe and he's going to see District 9 with the rest of the people...I had no interest in the movie, but I felt like...maybe since it's a movie about aliens and shit..it would be interesting. Of course I knew he'd be there...and I knew she'd probably be there too...as my suspicions, I was right. She says hi to me...I tell her to "shut up"...harsh..but it's who I am, it's how I cope. One of my biggest pet peeves has to be not realizing what you have done wrong..anyway...we are in the movie...and I was trying to be positive through the first 30 mins of boredom and shit...but NO I HATED THAT MOVIE...i couldn't wait till it was over. Everyone else seemed to have liked it though....congrats to them...I'll never see it again, not even if I was paid.

ugh now i'm back to being angry...but i'm also passing out from tiredness. Maybe I'll be happier tomorrow...but i doubt it.

( The Chrissy story )

So my suspicions were correct.
Though the words. "I like her" hasn't come out of his mouth.
My friend was highly upset (though he didn't say so, but you KNEW) that we came over his house, when the girl I was crushing, I guess, was coming over to hang out with him. Even though she invited us to go over...and hang with him. He knew I had liked her (had is a past tense..but to his knowledge it should still be current) but that didn't stop him. On top of that...he so-called has a girlfriend. This isn't the first nor is it probably going to be the last time this will happen...I am NEVER going to bring anyone I'm currently interested in around him. No, I'm not disappointed at him, I just come to realize...what type of person he really is and I'm not going to look through rose colored glasses anymore. Optimism in this situation is pointless. He's a good guy...however he thinks too much with his cock to even realize when he's acting for his own accord..and not as a friend should.

*sigh*

still..there I don't really think I'm mad at him, or her. I realize I was fighting a pointless battle and backed out before I go hurt emotionally. So..i guess..that's it.



also: Taokaka and Noel for the win!!

Jay's Random thoughts.

Someone today made me feel really nice. I usually feel meh, about my looks because even though i'm "nicer" for the most part out of the guys I hang out with I tend to get the "buddy" ranking. My friend who I had a crush on a few years back ended out going out with one of my best friends (some of you may remember this lj entry..yeah i doubt it) and when they broke up she came to me at work to talk about it. Me and her are still pretty close and she always IMs me when she's drunk..but yeah they usually catch the eyes and are often more appealing while I always end up the 7th wheel, or sometimes higher. However, I went to my friends Job today (friend having nothing to do with it, other than the fact that maybe that's why I go there) and I ordered pizza, then this girl comes up and asks if I'm being helped..I say yes, and she asks me what I ordered..our conversation starts (short) and her whole attitude and way of speaking seems to point out she may have been hitting on me. She asks me if I was the friend of the girl who job it was, and I answer yea. She doesn't say anything after that (no reason to believe that being my friend's friend was a bad thing)..but even so it was kind of an..interesting experience

Anywho...later at work.

So I told my friend that the mem card I have doesn't fit in the camera he gave me, so he bought in his today. He gives it to me for $10...which wasn't bad seeing as how it's a $40 mem card. However the card doesn't really click into the camera and I kinda have to close the back of the camera on it to get the pictures to show up, on top of that the cable he gave me doesn't fit the camera. I had a camera of the same company and it didn't give me this much hassle! I lost that camera (bad luck with them I know), so I still have the cable..it fits. but doesn't work..leaving me saying wtf. *bangs head against palm of hand* part of me wants to give the camera back...get my money..go with plan A. However...the camera DOES take alright pictures when it wants...and I did get it for quite a bit cheaper than my original "new camera". However his camera also uses Batteries. Idk i kinda wanna be like hey look...your camera is giving me many problems...I rather just buy the one i saw online. However..I guess idk..knowing the money kinda helped him...ugh..we'll see (I'll keep you guys posted)

Now for the really randomness.

Sometimes I feel like I have a totally functional other person in my head lol. Not in the crazy kind of way, it's just sometimes I feel like I give myself advice and then don't take it. Like..last night I'm playing WoW, and I'm in Dalaran..my computer handles Dalaran a little better now, but it's still a pain in the ass to load the game in Dalaran, so I'm just like.
Brain: Jay don't log out in Dalaran, you'll have a difficult time loading when you log in..
Jay: True..uh..maybe I'll take the flight path somewhere...
Brain: Okay...hurry though..you're getting tired...
Jay: Yeah...*esc>Exit game>exit now*
Brain & Jay: Oh god damnit...

We were playing Ninja Turtles IV: Turtles in Time..Ninja turtles are the shit..*random fact* I use to look down sewer drains to see if I could find them *sewer holes in like parking lot ones*, when I was like 5..and Santa and the easter bunny both gave gifts..ah youth.

So I get mail today...now we always get other people mail. Infact last like saturday? no...sometime later. Whatever. A package came for someone who "supposedly" lives here. Now my grandma lived here..for most of my dad's life..I believe..so that's like 40 some-odd years. Yet people we don't know claim to have lived here...whatever. I get a package that says Jason on it..I see the name..and I immediately go to think...can't be anyone here. Something I guess (intuition?)told me to check who it was from. Turns out it was for me..it was from the Mondondi.com people who sell the little emote pins I have on my hat. So I would have returned it thinking it wasn't for me when it was for me all along.

I think that's pretty much on the ranting..It's 3:30...I'm thirsty...and I need to be up by 8. GOD I hate my job...only my genius of a manager (excuse me sub-manager because our ACTUAL , as much as he may think he is, is really nice and considerate) would schedule someone for night shift AND morning shift..you know..night shift one day..morning the next. GIVEN, I only need to wake up at 8 because I have to walk...to the train, jump on that..and then walk more..all in all it's about a hour trip...I just dilly dally...hate waking up...and if I miss one train...It's 30 mins til the next...sooooooo better safe than sorry.

Yeah..I said it. Dilly Dally.

Why am I still up??????

Oh!...and I also have to tell you guys the story of Chrissy one day...

Okay first off..I wanna say. I love this I-con! lol I made it earlier when looking for Team Rocket pictures..because I was bored, and because I think they're cool. Everyone has their opinions of them, but they were always cool in my book.

Anywho...I got me a new camera today..I bought it from this kid at my job for 55$$, it's alright it takes alright pictures. The only problem i have is that when i try to take pictures of anything upclose or small (IE Figures) they come out blurry. SAD, because my D.A. has all sorts of Figure pictures on it, I guess I'm just going to have to practice taking the pictures, and outside light should work better than my lamp. Also another "inconvience" Idk so much as if it's a problem, but...my SD card doesn't fit in it, so I have to buy a new one. Still the camera I WAS going to buy was $160?..so I saved some.

Idk I feel all creative now, i need to go test it out soon.

Alright..I guess that's all i had to say...

ughh..why is it when I feel like I can remove things from thought, they're forced back into view. *bangs head on laptop* and I'm too stupid (ha) to realize the better choice, and all this is a huge diversion from what I my true desires are.....whatever maybe I'll feel better about this in the morning..oohhh wait! It IS morning.. -_-;;

Soooo...

The 2nd half of Inuyasha is coming to the anime world!! Wooooo =) now I need to catch up on it.
I bought 2 Box sets very cheap on Ebay so I can watch them all one day (okay seeing that it's 54 episodes it may not be 1 day)...but I'm excited. I heard it ended kinda crappy, but I mean..the fact that it ended is kinda blah. Endings always usually means you won't see these characters in new adventures. *is still waiting for a FFVIII sequel*

Remember back in 2008, or maybe Jan 1st of 2009, I made a resolution to get my drivers license? Well I plan on going to the DMV friday, when I have off from work. I don't know..I mean, I guess I should want to learn to drive, but getting out there and actually doing it is kind of scary. Ah well..I'ma try anyway.

My Camera is broken! Correction...the screen in which I can preview and do most of the functions is broken! I am not happy about this, since I use my camera for everything!! It still takes pictures and videos, though I won't know which...so I don't know I guess I can still use it, but if I can find the box, I might still be under warranty, I don't think it's too late, haven't had it a year yet...

SOoo also, I got a refund check from the college. it was for like $79..which was confusing because I owe them like $700, i don't know if I mentioned this before, but I hated my major and stopped going to my last class, teacher dropped me out and since it was the only class I took, I had nothing to keep my financial aid going, so pretty much I have to pay tuition and the price of the class. SO..we come to the question. "Where did they find $79 to give me?"

Ah, my friend Joe has such cool co-workers. My co-workers are alright, but since they keep us closed up behind the deli counter, and they snarl at us every time we leave, I never get to see anyone else, the other deli workers are alright. I really only talk to a few, one which includes my best friend Brendan, sucks, they seem to have sooo much fun too =P. Speaking of jobs, scream park is coming up. Some of you *cough*brittany*cough* know how that was, but despite how terrible it was "some" of the time (at least for me), some of the time it was fun, and I got to hang out with my other best friend Joe like everyday lol which was always cool. Sooo I'm going back, the money will also help with Saving...since I tend to spend my King Kullen checks before I realize it..

So I was thinking about getting a new psp and Dissidia. I have the japanese Dissidia, and it's reallly fun game, but I also feel like I'd love to know what they were talking about, I also would like to play the game with a better knowledge of how. Also my psp's analog is broken..which gives me all sorts of problems with the game. So Gamestop is having a bundle with Dissidia and a psp for $200..I might have to get it. The psp Go is coming out apparently in October but since it doesn't use UMV's or whatever they're called it seems pointless. plus I won't be able to mod it and get ff7 on to it. soooooooooooo i'm probably gonna pass on that.

Kk, that's pretty much it. I'm yawning over here...soooo night.

The party was fun...so thanks guys for telling me to go.

my mind's in a million different places right now, so I think I'm going to end it there.

So I guess I'm over my pretty bad mood that I was in. I mean...there's alot to explain..but I don't want to..I want to forget about it. I've been able to smile again..and it's really what matters.

So there's a party saturday..my friends expect me to go. I told my friend Joe and Derek I didn't want to go. They want me to go because they think I'll have fun. Truth is..I might. I just think she'll be there..and I don't want things to be complicated. Here I go again, over thinking, things should be fine right....of course...I think I need to hurry up and finish nassau so i can go to an away college. I've been thinking about New Paltz. It's still close enough to come visit, but far enough that I can dorm. I've never actually though about if I could dorm with people until the Disney interview. I mean..I'm not very open..but I guess as long as my room-mate has some sort of personality I could get along with them.

On another note entirely. I got the last two Inuyasha movies, I watched the first one before I went to work. It was pretty good (though I seen it before) Idk, I though I didn't like it too much before...but idk it was fine. Infact, might have been better than fine. Lotsa Kikyo is a plus!

I lost my mouse...so I can't play WoW til I find it. Hohum.

( My feelings through the eyes of Inuyasha )

I've been on a inuyasha binge lately...

So with Otakon only a few days away, I'm just holding my breath and going with the flow of time. At work this kid John was pissing me off because everyday he there from when i get in til 8, and he sits in the back and does nothing, he "claims" to be cleaning the back and he usually does the chicken oven an puts chickens on spits (the chicken sticks) and idk it's all stuff that could be done within a hour or maybe 2 if you're slow, but no he takes the entire 3 hours usually to do it...so I was fed up..and my customers though not necessarily innocent themselves got the butt of it.

it was only a matter of time though, letting them say whatever they want to us...acting like we are devices for them to use. It was busy all day, me and the guy working with me had to cut pretty much all day without break, and since they do not want us to stay later than we're suppose to, we close earlier, not very early either. We usually stop cutting at 9:30...and today we stopped at like 9:20. This one guy who came after 9:30 last week came up to us today at like 9:25..9:27pm or something, and the kid (corey) working with me was like "we're closed".
The guy flat out said. "No you're not." he was telling us about how we said we were open til 9:30...so here he is, before 9:30. Corey tried calmly saying how we were closed, but the guy wasn't backing down. So I come in and I'm like "Well complain to our fat ass manager." The guy looks at me and is "like what did you say?" I repeated it. The guy goes on to complain about how "we're doing it wrong" and I'm like "Doing what wrong?" he's like.."the guys that were here before, I know one got fired use to be open til 9:45" so I go "Sir we were open ALL day..you knew we closed at 9:30 why didn't you come earlier" the guy then goes "I don't care when you're open!!" and I immediately reply "and I don't care when we close!!" which must have really stuck in him..because he didn't say anything after that and just huffed and walked away. I'm tired of dealing with stupid people, you won't believe how many of these bastards come to the deli, knowing they'll have to wait on a line..and then complain we're going to slow and that they have to pickup their kid from the bus. I seriously don't get that.

Wantagh breeds stupidity by the dozens..

I need to hurry and finish school so I can start trying to get a "meaningful" job, and maybe one that will be more rewarding.
...........then again I can always fight fire.

I've written and idea down and deleted it like 10 to 15 times for the past hour...I've got nothing...and everything to write about. But I can't seem to make sense of it..
it's 5:59AM now...