I've written and idea down and deleted it like 10 to 15 times for the past hour...I've got nothing...and everything to write about. But I can't seem to make sense of it..
it's 5:59AM now...

My PC had it's second heart attack today. I don't really know why, I hope it's not gonna die. The first time it happened I was going to play Wow after like a few weeks without playing it, so that computer hadn't been turned on at all. So something told me to turn it on before applying my gamecard to my account. It didn't respond. Last time that had happened, my computer was like dead and my cousin replaced the power supply. So I was hoping, and didn't really think it should have been that. After a few, unnecessary (it seems) pulling out of the plug and putting it back in, it turned on. No problems for a few days. Then today, sign on wow and then..BAM it turns off..and is beeping at me. I don't know what beeping means. So i unplug it just to shut it up. Plug it back in...beeping continues. It happened for about 10 mins then I just unplugged everything. When i replugged everything after cleaning the area my computer was at (just cuz there was dvds and cables and stuff everywhere and it had been annoying me) it started working. I don't know why it's acting weird, it's gets enough attention..my poor laptop should be the one crying, but i don't wish that on it.

So I'm in the car yesterday....now I don't know if i said this before but i'm guessing i did. My doctor has me taking these pills to replenish the vitamin D in my blood since my blood work showed that I lacked pretty much any. now I'm in the car and there's a talkshow on the radio on some random channel no one knew about. Talking about Vitamin D..weird i know. Now lately i've been able to wake up at 10ish without no problem, i've been more energetic, and i guess in a slightly better mood. The guy on the radio said that they did a test where they deprived students of Vitamin D, and when they replaced it they realized a elevation in their mood. Which is what I myself had been wondering if it was the vitamins. I guess it was.

My Vincent costume arrived ^__^ it's cool. If i had made it i'd do a few changes like making the muffler a little bigger and longer to cover more of my face, and it's cape..is..odd, but I guess his cape is odd. I plan on adding some more fabric to it to hopefully extend it, buuuuttt idk. Anyway once i get the wig i'll be good. The costume came with a gold claw too, it looks really stupid...however i guess if for some reason i don't get anything done by then i have it, and all of it's cheaply fashioned glory lol. Hopefully i'll like the costume when it's done, it didn't look too bad when i tried it on to see if it fit, soooooo idk. I always get self-conscious when i cosplay. Anyway the claw probably won't look the way i expected for this con but the others it will..hopefully. I just don't want to spend the 50$$-60$$ with the con so close.

It's been getting hotter and hotter. I hate summer. Bugs, the heat..what's to like? I'm not to big on beaches either, sand's not my friend.

I don't have time to doubt myself.

Post a list of up to 20 books/movies/anime/TV shows/video games/bands etc. that you've had an obsessive fannish love or interest in at some time in your life.
Have your f-list guess your favorite character/member from each item.

1.Inuyasha - Kikyo kitsune_no_sora 
2. Final Fantasy- Yuffie Kisaragi kitsune_no_sora 
3. Death Note- Misa Amane kitsune_no_sora 
4. X-men- Rogue kitsune_no_sora 
kitsune_no_sora 
5. Naruto
6. Gurren Lagann- Yoko kitsune_no_sora 
7. Black Lagoon (the anime)- Revy kitsune_no_sora 
8. The Tsviets- Rosso the Crimson -kitsune_no_sora 
9. Soul Calibur- Cassandra kitsune_no_sora 
10. Runaways (the comic)
11. Dead or Alive
12. Organization XIII- Larxene kitsune_no_sora 
13. .hack//infection- Gardenia kitsune_no_sora 
14. Evangelion-  Asuka kitsune_no_sora 
15. Legend of Zelda- Zelda kitsune_no_sora 
16. Tenchu
17. Rurouni Kenshin- Misao kitsune_no_sora 
18. The Perfect Score
19. Super Smash Brothers
20. Disgaea

way to go sam...way to SUCK the fun outta this for everyone else =P

I just re-drew Kenu and Shigatsu's clothing, for there past and future selves. It really made me want to get back into writing their story. I also drew a pretty "crazy" looking Azurelle...still i think my other picture of Rena is my favorite..it's just awesome. They'll as well as some other art will be up on my deviantart most likely tomorrow.

So I FINALLY saw it. Underworld: Rise of the Lycans. It was pretty cool. It definitely didn't have the awesomeness of the other two..(well maybe) but it was really good. It had to put in alot of story and info about stuff so I guess it might have been a little too much in a 1hr 30mins, still it was worth seeing, and I paid $10 for it from Target, so now i own it. I'm gonna one day watch all 3..and see if the story makes more sense. Right now i'm slightly confused..but not really. I wonder if they're gonna make a new one..if I remember correctly there should be 3 coffins...1 held Victor, 1 held Markus..so there should be a 3rd one. *shrug* Rise of the Lycans also takes place in the past because they use swords and arrows and horses. There was no technological stuff, leaving me to believe what i said earlier. I don't think they're gonna explain anymore about Selene's past...unless they do it in the next one.

in short: UNDERWORLD IS AWESOME XD</text>

kk,so...that's pretty much it.

oh wait no.

I beat Resident Evil 4 today, the game wasn't really scary,(i guess if i played it with the lights off it would be), except the Re-generators . They bug me the fuck out. There was also one other pretty creepy part. You open up a garbage can..and there's a bag in it (duffle size). and IT starts wiggling (for a good 3 mins)...and then stops. Even the character asks "what the hell was that"...and the worse part is. You never find out.

I hate wasting my days off from work..
I had plans to do stuff with my friends..and then they get blown to shit
and no one has the initiative to say "plans aren't happening"
so I ended up playing Resident Evil 4, 10 outta the like 16 hours i've been awake.
IT SUCKS!

On a lighter note, we did pre-register today, I've been hassling my friends about doing it since it saves us $10, and we don't have to stand on such a long line. My friend Brendan was all for it, but idk why the other two felt the need to beat around the bush for so long. And to be honest...I can't even say I'm 100% sure they did it.

Anyway, in other news. I cut my hair...it needed to be done, so that it could grow better. Maybe I shouldn't have gotten it cut so low, but Idk..right now i'm trying not to think about it. It's been 6 years since my last cut, and I guess i'm so used to it that I find my self shocked and confused when I see myself in the mirror for a brief few seconds. ehhhhhh.....

I'm so sick and tired of my job. It's the same crap everyday...I can't wait til I get the morning shifts. It won't be too much better ,but it'll be a little less stressful.

I guess that's pretty much it.

and so it begins...

I'm frustrated..I don't really know why.
Maybe there's a reason..maybe there's not.
Can't exactly tell...

I feel like I'm waiting for something..
like you know when you order something in the mail
and each day, seems extraordinarily long..because it's on the way
I feel like that...everyday.
Maybe because life has been very linear lately.
Nothing ever happens...

even the exciting stuff, has that..pre-used feel to it..

( RANT RANT RANT )

on a better note, Otakon is coming up.

I don't really have much time to write, i have to be to work soon..

So I just got finished watching Final Fantasy 7: Advent Children complete. It was really cool, it had a lot of bonus material and scenes and little heres and theres that just made it more interesting. I never seen it in japanese before, so i don't know how much different from the japanese version was the wording, but somethings made sense to me when i read it in japanese. Like Reno and Rude blowing the spot that they didn't know where Jenova's head was but actually that they were just hiding it.

anyway today was a terrible bore. I spent half the day trying to upload pictures to facebook only for it to fail. Then I finally did get them up and it was like 8pm. I could have went up state to see my uncle but i was soooo tired, and my mom wasn't feeling well so it was kinda of good i didn't go.

I keep getting friend requests on my other journals. I don't think I have any friends from them on here...they use to be ones I rp'd with. They don't update or anything...or comment..(i guess who would comment on a journal that doesn't update) eh..who knows.

I miss boston, it was really nice looking...and not really hot, i hate the heat...i'm hoping summer forgot it's plane ticket....and won't be coming to visit this year. =)

The convention was cool, I mean for the first time going it made a pretty good impression. The Dealer's room wasn't too great, but whatever I got what I wanted from there so i guess it wasn't too bad. I wore my annoyingly huge cloak which was cool, but I can't wait to do vincent valentine!! I think I could do him well, i'm going to have to get a wing and everything too. My only real concern is that it WILL be july...and it WILL be hot...and I DONT like being hot.

They didn't have my Rogue figure =( which was sad news bears. However there was enough Yuffies to keep me happy =)

Edit: 3:00PM (that's right this edit goes first, because it's that amazing, this one goes pretty much to Brittany and anyone who thought of seeing the movie) Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist was a really good movie, least I liked it. It's one of those movies, that would never happen in real life, but you look at it and go aww cuz you wish stuff like this happened to good people on a daily basis, and that you can relate to whether you be the guy or the girl in the movie.



It's 2:25 and I just got out of bed, I've been on and off awake for awhile now. There's nothing to do, I'm upset that I don't know where my flash drive is so pretty much my nassau career is gone (not that there was much of a career) meaning I have to shit out 40 pieces of art work...and guess who my teacher is this semester (that is if nothing has screwed it up, should check on that) Emmerson. For most of you that means nothing. In fact, I don't know why I bought it up. Let me tell you about the Graphic Design teachers. you have

Gorman- the extremely flamboyant Heterosexual Teacher, who likes to hear himself talk but never really says anything. However his classes are really easy, and I've had him a bunch of times and passed no problem.

Maksym- one word describes her. Bitch. She is the ruler of Cuntry, she doesn't like guys (so it seems alot of people say it too, so it's not just me), she is racist (same goes for everyone else saying it too),she has a kinda strong accent, it makes it funny, but i guess it's also a little hard to understand, but just a little. I think I nearly failed every class I had her for..and I'm avoiding taking her again, especially for this class. She also doesn't really know much, like I had to explain to her what a Kunai was..i mean i guess not EVERYONE knows what ninjas are, but..i don't know...what am I to do, if I want to make a flash animation about something I like...and she can't grade it correctly because she doesn't get it. A lot of other people in my class liked it.

Emmerson- He is, a well rounded guy. He will work with you, he will help you. However, he is strict to all hell. Least for me. (i'll explain in a min) I mean, I guess if you want a career in this major you'd like someone at him, cuz he doesn't allow you to cut corners, however there are some cases where you and him will be at a disagreement because you like the way something is, and he doesn't. Artistic views, my dear Watson. That's what makes every artist different. If I want a bunny, I don't think it should be a bear, let alone a blue bear with red boots. Cuz it's kinda not what I had in mind? I mean I guess I don't have a problem with him. It's just I long ago gave up on this major. (more explaining later)

The Adjuncts- These are the random types of teachers, there are more graphic design teachers but it's odd because I've only ever had those 3, though there are like 3 or 4 more floating around. Whatever, anywho. You don't know these people because they'll work a different job and are only there to teach your class. hit the lottery? not all the time. I had this one lady my first semester as a newly transferred Graphic Design student, since I took "ART" which apparently is a major, and my first semester besides English and Math, I took a buncha elects. She was, alright I suppose...not really, all she wanted us to do was to take a buncha pictures and make...and I'll never forget this. Photo montages......she wasn't even an Adjunct to say, she was more like our permanent sub.

Needless to say, I find NCC a terrible school, my friend from work is dropping out of it. He too is in the same major I'm in, and I don't know it's just like I want to draw, and all those previous teachers were like yeah you're in the right major. Later to only find out my drawn art, and my animation (the two things I kinda wanted to do) aren't allowed to be used in my portfolio. So now i'm sitting here, rubbing my head, going what the hell..while time is flying by and giving me the occasional middle finger. It's like being waist deep in cement and not being able to go anywhere. However, I was thinking about switching majors,if i do that everything i've taken will be transferred. If i can pass that major, and take all my credits i can give a well deserved boot up the ass of that terrible place and leave it. However I don't know where I want to go..I mean jumping straight into illustration as like a 3rd year in college only pretty much knowing what i knew from high school is gonna severely hurt me.

man this was not suppose to be a rant about how much i hate NCC, and now i have like a hour or so before i have to get ready for work, which is going to be terrible, but actually not TOOOO terrible seeing as how John isn't working with me tonight.

Random thought: I should change the formatting of this LJ to Rich Text, it'll be alot easier for LJ-cuts n' stuff..

soo..i've been wondering if I should write this here or not, being that as of now it isn't tooo big of a deal anymore. However, I also know that you guys are my friends and should know about it.

I was in a car accident monday, May 11th.
I had just gotten out of work, and my friends picked me up we went to Wendy's then for drinks we went to 7-11. We were leaving the 7-11..or at least about to pull out of the parking lot, we pulled out and then me and my friend joe (sitting in the back seat) saw it, a car going like 80 and us half way on our way out of the parking lot.
Time slowed down it felt then all of a sudden it was the initial collision. It was bad, but it wasn't too bad however...our friend patrick's elbow hit the my friend Derek in the head knocking him unconscious thus causing him to floor it into a truck (parked thankfully), that was fueling a gas station. (also thankfully we didn't hit that)

the rest isn't really important, I hit my nose on Patrick's chair (who I told to pull up, but didn't and said he didn't know how) so I had a bloody nose but was otherwise okay. My friend Derek and Patrick was hit with glass shards (not terribly as bad as it sounds) and Derek knee got busted up bad but it isn't broken so that's good, Joe was fine (except for some 24-hour later pain), which would have been my case had patrick pulled up his fucking chair.

I'm just glad we didn't hit the gas station, blowing up...never though of that as a way to go. Also thinking of me as gone, isn't very appealing. We joke about the accident now, and none of us really were too shaken up from it...it's just...it was scary to think about. I should have taken pictures of the car, I had my camera...but who thinks at a time like that.




I wanted to end this entry with a...."on a brighter note" however, there isn't much of one. OH WAIT YEAH THERE IS!!! *thanks television** UNDERWORLD: RISE OF THE LYCANS is out!!!!! I soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo have to get that!!!! They're selling the trilogy for like $50-$60, but I already have the other 2 movies...and since the other two movies aren't really more than $10...i don't get why anyone would do that.

I guess i'm pretty much done, my mind keeps wandering around and it took me like and hour to type this all out when it could have taken ALOT less...lol...ah well.

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kitsune_no_sora


gave me Yuffie Kisaragi, Final Fantasy, Soul Calibur. =)

So lets do this...she really should have choosen Inuyasha though!! Or underworld..idk lol

( The Fandoms of Jay )

I've never been worried about going to sleep before.

I will never understand the human race. So vulnerable..yet feeling as if they're invincible. So confident yet emotionally fragile.

What's a friend to you?

I use to hand the title of "friend" out to people who I knew long enough and were able to stand being around. However I feel lately as if I should be taking those back, some people don't deserve my friendship.

So what would you do: One of your best friends is on the brink of going out with this girl he likes, you've known the girl for awhile and she's really cool. In fact! Everyone thought she was cool back when she use to go out with your other friend. HOWEVER now? They have a problem with her..even my friend who use to go out with her doesn't seem to have "too" much of an issue with it. Stress on "too", because even if he does..he doesn't talk shit about them, but whatever.

I don't know, I mean people have a right to their opinions, however can't you be happy for a friend? I'm just glad my friend, whether or not they like her won't like that to please them.

Laura is also in that group of "friends", I don't know...I don't talk to her at work anymore, or try to hang out with her. She doesn't seem to have an issue with it, she doesn't seem to even notice that when I'm talking to her, it's only a A and B to get to C conversation. She's really confusing, she's really depressing and she is such a downer, I don't care what my friends say about how "cool" she is. I mean I thought so too which is why I started to like her, however it's been all down hill since she became one of the group, I mean she was at the party too...and didn't say 2 words to me the entire time. So fuck her.

lol I don't think this helped vent at all.

oh and yeah, I'm going to Anime Boston, can't wait. =)

So..lets start this with. I've been up since 11:30am May 4th...the reason as to why is kind of dumb, so I won't go into it.
Some of you may have tried to contact me the last few days, but my phone was "lost".
And now is recovered, my phone is pretty bad-ass to have survived all the rain, being picked up by stangers and just the harshness of it's 48 hour abandonment. I'm glad I found it, it was a little wet and because of that it suffered some minor issues but nothing that can't be dealt with, or hasn't fixed itself due to drying. I'm a little surprised too seeing as how my phone does have a crack in it which goes to a circut chip in it. Whatever. I'm happy.

making this day 5 of Zombie suspicion

WoW is beginning to annoy me. It keeps kicking me off..Latency is shit..and there's no reason as to why. So I'm probably going to end up playing Might and Magic! Because I bought the game to play and haven't done so recently.

I bought me a new cloak that's not obnoxiously green, though I do like the green one too. I feel as if it's more Ranger-like which is what I was going for. I wanna go to a Renaissance Faire, I haven't been in soooo long. The next one I know of is in like Oct or something...there's one in Sands Point...it's alright..they do have this bitchin' castle there. Which they use to storm later, Idk my friend Joe can get me in for free if he goes. The one in October is in PA...but it's amazing.

Also bought a new Griever, my friend Joe kinda broke the ring that connected it to the chain and now it just sits in my house, but whatever it costed me $9

Zombie suspicion

Here's the beginning of my fanfic.
not much else happened today...

( Deeper.. )

Today was pretty boring. However this entry is more of to tell everyone. I finally finished my Rena story, which is an achievement in itself. First story I've ever actually finished. It's kind of long, and it's full of spelling and grammar errors, but I guess that all is suppose to come after writing down ideas anyway.

I was looking for one of my other stories to write more to, and I came across my "Kikyo Fanfic." It's kind of short but I don't know, I was reading it and I guess because I'm a fan of the series it's written better than most of the things I've written, I guess also if you know the series it helps and I don't really have to explain much. Like, if you watched the series you know what the Windscar looks like. I don't think I'm going to add anymore to that though,I mean it gets across my idea of why I like kikyo really easy.

Eh maybe one day i'll finish another.